His stomach twists into knots at the question. He can't help it.
"A little, yeah," he answers, breathing out heavily. "I've had a couple of incidents, times where I couldn't ... "
Couldn't control himself. Like on S.H.I.E.L.D.'s helicarrier or when he was stopped crossing the border from Pakistan into India by people who meant to rob and, quite possibly, kill him. He can't bring himself to say that, though, afraid that Betty will think less of him for a couple of slips, even if logically, he knows better. She likely knows what he's not saying, anyway, so why bother?
"I've figured out a couple of tricks, though." Like realizing that it's easier to keep a handle on himself by staying in a controlled state of anger and self-loathing. "And I realized it's an adrenal trigger, not based on my heart rate, like I originally thought."
Which explains why he isn't wearing the heart rate monitor that had become a permanent part of his wardrobe anymore.
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:17 pm (UTC)From:"A little, yeah," he answers, breathing out heavily. "I've had a couple of incidents, times where I couldn't ... "
Couldn't control himself. Like on S.H.I.E.L.D.'s helicarrier or when he was stopped crossing the border from Pakistan into India by people who meant to rob and, quite possibly, kill him. He can't bring himself to say that, though, afraid that Betty will think less of him for a couple of slips, even if logically, he knows better. She likely knows what he's not saying, anyway, so why bother?
"I've figured out a couple of tricks, though." Like realizing that it's easier to keep a handle on himself by staying in a controlled state of anger and self-loathing. "And I realized it's an adrenal trigger, not based on my heart rate, like I originally thought."
Which explains why he isn't wearing the heart rate monitor that had become a permanent part of his wardrobe anymore.